I was really pissed today afternoon.
and i really cant help it..
i didnt want to be pissed off.
i have really bad temper..
and i hate it..

I mean this thing has followed me for years...
since secondary school,
if its lesson time, its lesson time.
so i will want people to NOT talk so that teacher can finish teaching everything on time.
If its lecture, its lecture..
tats y, in my 1st year of poly..
i really couldnt take it.
people talking in lecture..
coz i really wanted to study..
and smss used to b so strict, nobody will talk..
so all i wanted was to get things going, and for things to end as scheduled..
All i wanted was to start , discuss, get things going and then end and go home..
not drag and drag and have fun but nothing gets done.

Not to say tat im a not fun person.
but i feel that, if its time to work, its time to work..
so i want things to move..
if it doesnt, i will feel very stressed.
lyk why isnt things moving....
i will want to push the topic to go on..
but, effort by one is not enuf..
im really tired..
though i have tolerated for very long..
sometimes, i really wanted to cry in front of everyone..
but i juz try super hard to keep everything inside and not scare everyone and not let everyone think that im a freak wen im crying in the middle of something.
HAIZ..