Im really at the verge of breaking down soon..
its lyk.. i know smth is wrong yet i duno what i can do it salvage it or make it better.
everytime wen this happens, i keep telling myself that its would be over soon.
It got me over for the 1st day, 2nd day and 3rd..
as time goes by, it will get you over for 10 hrs, 9 hrs...etc..
its kept decreasing till the point where u can no longer stand it and feel lyk breaking down..
yet you try to bluff yourself tat, it will b over soon though u noe it doesn work for you anymore.

Im trying..
i really am... trying very hard..
everytime when i talk abt it, i will break down..
frequency increase as times goes by as well
till the point where sometimes, i wonder if im at the verge of depression, or am already in it..
its lyk, all these are making me more and more paranoid,
making my temper worse and anxiety will visit me almost everyday...
only wen times when i talk to me friends abt it, will they start asking me if im paranoid..
thn i would question myself if i realy am.. and reflect..
yet circumstances seems to stand on my previous views..
and the cycle would continue...

God.. let me get over all these soon..
Please help me tide through all these..
Amen