I guess in life its lidat.
u cant have best of both worlds..
especially if they mean alot to you.

im really tired of everything..
People and things.
i wish i can migrate to somewhere else and start a new life

sometimes, i realy hate comparing..
but my competitive nature doesnt allow me to do so..
and it makes me suffocate...

i have a evil thinking in mind
and i feel bad about it..
EILEEN! STOP HAVING EVIL THOUGHTS!