Just took up a new job recently..
So 2 full time jobs, 1 full time study....
v xiong but also not v xiong at times..

I dont know..
I dont know which is causing me to feel so... depressed..

Job 1: Tiring job that makes me dread going to work.. facing the calls, the unexpected.. The negativity.
Job 2: Challenging job that makes me feel so stressed. Job is something that im used to.. but its sometimes so hard that it makes me shrink too..

School is so relaxing.. untill now..when my exams are coming...

Sometimes, the world is so small..
I met this lady, she was working in the same job as me..
And one day, she shared her testimony.. Her son commited suicide a few years back..
Although it happened really long ago.. i could feel that heart wrenching pain that she was feeling when she shared.

And concidentally, she used to live opposite my block and went to the church i always thought of going but never did.

I cant go to church without someone going with me.. it just feels so weird.. to go there and just join them so abruptly. So i go to different churches whenever i had company.. But it never occured to me to go there.

Sometimes, i feel that this is a sign.
A sign that god gave me.. to tell me to go back to church...
And now im going to this church praying much more thn usual...
I can feel more peace in my heart.

Once, i was so depressed, i was crying in the office. In a small corner...
When i heard footsteps, i quickly dried my tears and pretended everything was normal..
But she came and all she said was" Oh i just passed by and i just want to give u a hug.. Persevere on and dont give up"

That time, i really felt that she was sent by God to me.. To show me the way..
Why would i feel so warm from a random someone which i have met less than 10 times?
Fate. Such a wonderful thing huh?